Geez...

I finally got a chance to lead a worship session for an encounter weekend. Felt so privileged - and must say that it's been a long wait. But they did a swap with my session :( Initially i'm to lead worship for this session talking about the Cross. I prepared the songs according to the Spirit's guidance and was really quite pleased with it. Then on Wed ah pa said the session was changed to 'plan of redemption'. Although he said I don't have to do major changes, I just felt that my anointing would not be put into good use bcuz this session is not as power packed as the previous one, which somehow left me with the feeling that there's not much to minister thru the worship when it comes to my turn. Now I'm having problem looking for more appropriate songs to minister but thus far I'm stuck; and I'm supposed to email EJ by noon but here I am, sitting and still thinking... and who knows, maybe my inspiration will come only tom morning. But right now, I just feel like doing away with all the previous songs bcuz I dun feel inspired by them anymore. I'm so stuck now Lord.

regarding dota...

Just some thots that I have after playing dota these few years...

Intro:
When warcraft 3 entered the market, it operated very much like starcraft except the colors were more vibrant and there were 4 races and they intro the Hero concept. Standard warcraft game is you build and kill and expand. You play in different maps for new taste (just like in CS). THat's conventional game play. After a while they introduced new ways to playing the game, such as 3-corridors D-Day, easter bunny, diablo, Heros' Siege, etc. Heros siege & 3-corridors were pretty popular back then, until Dota appeared (or rather, they modified the old Dota). Its very much like 3 corridors except that u play it very much like an RPG. Levels & weapons make a whole lot of difference - an MMORPG to some extent.

Gameplay:
Dota (like most other computer games) focuses on Mental & Psychomotor Development. The Reality: You gain power by seeking to gain the upperhand, beat ur opponent thru out the game & he's basically dust. It is obsessive. If you're not careful, you can end up playing excessively, which is not good. It's easy to get engrossed in it. You'll feel sian when ur character dies. You'll feel very sian when u keep dying. But You'll also feel very shiok if you kill some pple. You'll feel so dam good when pple all gang u and u still dun die.

We play games to kill time. I play games to gain a sense of self-satisfaction. How many times do we marvel & feel really satisfied with what we've achieved in real life? If you play dota, you can feel that way in just 1 hr. Its cheap, but for that moment it does feel good (altho it doesn't last very long). More often than not, nobody shared in my victory. I win, I win alone. That's no fun, i discovered, altho we play in a team.

Being good at Dota does not imply you'll do well in life. Being good at Dota may be a result of addiction & an overwhelming desire to feel the exhilaration of winning. I think it's good to play Dota when there's time to kill and there's a break to take. Since its too intensive in nature, I'll recommend sleep as a good form of self-recovery.

In conclusion, I shall just say tat if there's time, choose sleep over Dota, choose outing over Dota, choose reading over Dota, choose blogging over Dota, choose stoning over Dota and choose ur girlfren over Dota. But what if my skills backslided? Well, so be it. After all, what use is it to lose rest, brain juice, time with loved ones, knowledge, inner peace over Dota? haha...